Despression Level 10: FuckYouSon or DaughterOfBitches!

Arinie dimulakn dgn senyuman paksaan dan hati paksarela nk ke kuliah (neh tnda2 depression ke or starter of my bad day).ok,fine. Annie, bersemangat okeyh!!nk blja neh. 1st lecture with miss nadia quite bad.mls nk komen lebih2 ye.enough to mention here;it is terrible.fullstop. sori miss


next lecture is physics.we have to present Newtons Law. ok fine the video cannot be played.hate this.then i heard someone said,,no actually my fren heard this


"bg la org len present"
"hah.try r sume player tu."


APEKAH?!shit. I dunno what i've done to you!can u just tell me straight away why all of you treat me like this.n also my fren.bullshit.yeah,i know my group is using the computer for more than half an hour.but we r preparing the slides for our presentation!we have some problem with the video,we have 2 convert it.then it takes a very long time.just put urself in our shoes.what would you feel??myb you have no idea bout that coz u r no human.fuck off.  sorry,this is my blog so i have the right to say anything,to voice out my view.


after lunch, aisya n I went to our room n try to get 192 copies of IELTS exercise. 192 . its a huge amount.then we have to pay RM160 for that.fine im alright.for me,it's tolerable coz it deals with our knowledge. i can pay it as long as my classmates pay me back.is it hard to pay me back?i just ask for rm5.im a commoner,u r the wealthy.i can pay rm160 why cant you pay me rm5?i dont ask for the service taxes,stapling n others..pissed off


then,we had our dinner at cafe..ouh,today is a world depression day!my appetite suddenly disappeared bcoz of those bitches + those suckers.


izyan birthday party.hate those faking smiles. but then we really enjoyed the food and jokes!then AGAIN those bitches destroy our mood!fuck off! i really dont know whats ur probs..can u tell me?i try to be more positive,open minded n cleared up my mind n try to think that its just my feeling,no evidences at all.but the more i push myself,the more u show ur true colour n finally, im 100% confident that all of u 'love' to mess up with me.haha dont make me laugh!okay!lets mess around!


p/s: i still dont get it why u becomes jerky.jealousy?popularity?take it if u want.we dont mind

act.,da ngantok da ku towk..cuma da lamak sik bukak blog ku towk bha,.rindu ndah ngn blog ku towk.huhu
banyak gilak benda da x ku padah ctowk eyh..sik tauk da mok pdh pa rah ctowk..

Lost


I'm afraid,
Afraid of being alone
I reach out in da darkness
& pray for someone to hold me

Angry
I give up
Fate has played its role
He took mi love & all my trust
& burned them up like coal

Tired

The pain's relentless
It just wont go away
& I know now that he is gone
But the tears are here to stay

Confused

there is no where to go
The walls are closing in
I thought we were in love
& now you are even a friend?

Hurt

I try to hide & hold my feelings in
I thought that things would work
But I got screwed again

its always happened to be like that.why would guys play with girl heart?doesnt it hurt them?whatever..


p/s: who will be my soulmate?